The JanWorry Rush

I got sick in January.
Money-making January.
Goal-setting January.
New year, new me January.

I was not “feeling out of it” sick either. I was totalled.

And guess what? I had no plan concrete plans! I left the plans for the year for AFTER the countdown.

I thought my little moment of Can’tDoAnything time would be good for me. Where I could just prop myself up on a pillow and work on my laptop.

WRONG.

I could hardly sit up. I could hardly put 2 thoughts together. That was the pattern for a whole week.

So I had to wait it out. God knew I had things to do. He heard my prayers for a better tomorrow. And I know He never turned a blind eye or “wasn’t listening” because… It was bad but it didn’t get terrible.

It was difficult to see people make plans and execute them in January when I could barely stand up. I felt like I was wasting time.

When I got over my spell, I felt like I was drinking cups of pool water as I tried to catch up with everyone that already started their first lap of the year (Read “Swimming Lessons”).

Then the aftermath hit me. I started to face the side effects of my medication. I was down again.

The first month of the year was dwindling away and I still had to get on top of things. I blamed myself for not planning BEFORE I got sick.

I had to make a decision, so I took my eyes off of the calendar. And used every good day as a work day. Pacing myself of course.

On the 31st of January, 2021… I am – better. I have learned that no matter how time-centered I am… I cannot control the events around my deadlines.

I missed the January Rush where we all put things in place. And I felt the pressure of it every single day. But after all that, I still managed to pull somethings off by the 11th hour. I don’t know what the moral of this story is… It’s more like a testimony more than anything else really.

So yeah, plan when you can so things still work when YOU can’t.

I guess that’s the moral. Not bad, I should get that on a Tshirt.