Yesterday

Yesterday my emotions were so out of whack! I could barely get through an hour without collapsing into my thoughts.

Yesterday my mind was so clogged I could not find the root of my sadness, so I had no option but to walk around with a heavy mind.

Yesterday I ate my weight in food, not the healthiest choice I’ve ever made during these ruts, but it was the only way I could keep myself mindlessly busy.

Yesterday I could barely put two sentences together. I had deadlines and just let the clock tick by because I was waiting for the day to end so that I could just wallow in whatever it was.

Yesterday the sight of food repelled me. I never wanted to eat again. It was utterly revolting to think about food.

Today is a lot like yesterday and the day before… They say you can’t rush these moments, so I’ll let them work. I’ll let the things I over-worry about present themselves in their own time.

I spend a lot of time getting anxious because I haven’t been low for this long… But I’ll wait. I’ll be patient. Even if 3 days after still feels like yesterday.

Don’t rush the process 😊. Feel better! It took me… I think 6 days to start feeling like myself again. It may feel like you’re holding onto nothing sometimes, but if you see nothing worth holding on for – hold on to see the end of the rut 🙏🏾 the comeback is the best part!